Hi guys! The Indiegogo campaign now has a mere 16 days left before it fails. That’s right. The total currently stands at £35/£16200. That is not getting funded in 2 weeks. I have done all I can. I’ll let the campaign end on its own. I wont extend it and i am actively searching for another job.
What this means?
I will continue to make mods. However, due to the nature of the jobs I need to apply for, I need to update my skills. The last time i built a website, it was normal and expected to use VBScript for an ASP.net site. These days its c#. Something to adapt to. It will take time and training/practice. That means less time to mod. I know i was asking for funding to increase my hours modding. What I should of also mentioned was that not getting funding means my availability to mod goes down. Quite a bit. At least until I have secured a job less stressful on my back.
The biggest stress on my back is a night shift. This weekend I have 3. I will be working 8 hours per shift. That’s 2 hours more than most of my shifts. There are less staff, I’ll probably be expected to lift items that could damage the muscles in my back. I am limited with options. I’ve already explained the situation, the person who arranges shifts at work knows exactly how scared I am that my back will fail on a night shift. I have 4 more to look forward to next week back to back. I pride myself on being good with numbers. I can see the next week breaking me. badly. I have to pay my bills. So i have to at least try and do these shifts. If they break me then we are going to struggle. I can’t legally/safely take pain killers at work or to get to work. I can’t take them and then do a school run (one of the few things i really need to be able to do at moment). I’m scared and trapped and not sure where to turn. Writing this, its not really for any reason other than a means to vent/cope with the situation. talking about this situation wont change the outcome of the indiegogo. It wont magically fix my shifts or my back. I just want you guys to know that if/when it all goes sideways, i really wanted to continue streaming, I really wanted to continue making great content for you guys too. I don’t even know if I can get another job that will be helpful for my back. I will have to focus on trying to do so however.
love you all for all the support you’ve shown, with donations, indiegogo support, advice and being good friends. I hope I am worthy of such a great community, sometimes I feel like i’m not. You guys help pick me back up again.
I also want to say something about my wife. She’s pregnant, 19 weeks 3 days. We had the 20 week scan today to check for any problems. Everything looks GOOD. I just want to take a moment to thank her for her support over the last 2 years. My back was tolerable until a month ago, now its just a weakened mess. She’s been there. She knows as well as I do how stressful this is. We need money coming in. If my back completely fails we wont have enough money coming in, so the pain i go through. The pain i am feeling right now, from the moment I wake until the moment i flop into bed is for her, my 2 boys and our unborn child. Because I need to provide for them and I love them all very much. I’m doing everything I can and i’m afraid, right now that soon, it wont be enough anymore.
Thanks for reading this if you got this far. 😉